A blink of an eye and a year has passed. The year 2010 has treated me well. A few major events during the year have made me gain some and lose some. In the end all is good, for everything happens for a reason.

I’m just gonna keep this short. Hereby wishing everyone a happy new year and all the best for the new year.

P.S. Happy new year to you too Axel, where ever you are, I hope you are doing well. I miss you.

Yeap, as per the title says, it’s that time of the year again, Christmas. I remember when I was a child, I really look forward to Christmas. Because during Christmas, my parents will put up our tiny Christmas tree and decorate it with lights, bells, balls and stars. Like this 1

Well may be ours aren’t that pretty but we still liked it anyway. Other than the shiny and pretty Christmas tree, there’s cookies !!

More cookiesssss

even more cookiessss ~~

But what really got me looking forward to Christmas every year, was the presents of course. Who doesn’t like presents

However, at some point in life, I couldn’t recall when, I stopped looking forward to Christmas anymore, and I didn’t really noticed that until recently. Guess we all grow up eventually. I remember when I was a kid, whenever Christmas is near, I would tell my parents “what I want for Christmas is ….”. Well, it has been a long time since I said those words, but this year I’m gonna say it again. Not to my parents, but to you.

All I want for Christmas is … You.

Yesterday was my birthday and it was a wonderful day. I’m gonna keep this post short and simple cause right now I’m quite exhausted after today’s event.

To start the day off, I received a home-made Tiramisu cake from my sister as my birthday gift from her.

My simple but happy family ^^

Also, my girlfriend decided to throw me a BBQ party for my birthday and we had kittens for BBQ.

Nah, just kidding, we had crabs for BBQ not kittens. Yummy ~

Here are the gifts that I got for my birthday.

A lovely couple teacup set from Jade Chuen. Thank you so much for this wonderful gift ^^

A water bottle holder from Kah Wai, Pei Fern & Monica. Thanks =)

Last but not least, a new Nike basketball shoe from my dear Poh Yee and her friends Dave, 龍少 and Shu Shi. Thank you all for this amazing birthday present.

All in all, I really enjoyed my birthday this year. So far, its the best birthday I’ve ever had =D.

Alright, let’s see… It’s been 3 months already since you stepped out of my life. Time sure flies doesn’t it. Gotta say that I was pretty devastated that day when I was woke up by mom and told that you were not in your cage. My mind went blank for a few seconds back then. When I came back to my senses, I immediately rushed downstairs to make sure if my mom was telling the truth. Unfortunately, she was indeed right, your cage was empty. Immediately, tears began to pour down my face, I’ve never cried so hard in my entire life nor have I ever felt so depressed in my entire life. It took me quite a long time before I could stood back up.

3 months have past, you stepped out of my life, but life still goes on. I’ve slowly gotten used to the fact that you are no longer with me now. Have I moved on? No, I don’t think so, how can I move on when I’m still missing you. You were like a son to me, you’ve always provided me company whenever I’m feeling lonely and down. You’ve brought so much fun and happy moments into my life. You have even helped me made a couple of good friends, most of all, you helped me found my true love, Poh Yee, and I’m really grateful for that. And probably it’s because of that, that I can’t move on. Everytime I look at Poh Yee, I can’t help but think that it was you who made this relationship possible.

Now that you’ve left me, how am I suppose to repay you. You have given me so much, yet I’ve given you only so little. Till today, I still shed tears everytime I browse through your photo album. I really want to feel your soft fur run through my hands once more. I really want to lie down beside you on the floor and take afternoon naps like we used to. I really really want to hug you tightly, even if its just for a moment. I miss that silly face of yours whenever I pat your head. Even more, I miss you… I really do.

I always believed that everything happens for a reason. You coming into my life and even stepping out. The reason that you came into my life, was to provide me with endless joy and happiness. Although I have yet to find the reason for you leaving me, but I’m sure its for the best. I can only wish that where ever you may be now, you are doing way much better than you usually do when you were with me. If fate allows it, I really hope that you will return to me someday. Know that you will always be my dearest and beloved son. No one can ever replace you in my heart, my dear boy, Axel.

This is one of the few songs that managed to move me and one of the few songs that I won’t get tired listening to no matter how many times I’ve heard it before. The 1st time I listened to it, I wasn’t paying attention to the lyrics of the song. After a while, I started paying attention to the lyrics and was deeply moved by it. tThis song is so good, yet so sad at the same time.

The song is literally about this guy not wanting to move on, still hoping that the one girl that he love will come back, still remaining where he was in life in case she comes back. The lyrics to this song is so simple and at the same time so wonderful.

So always appreciate the one that you have now. Emotions are something that sometimes people cannot control. But you’ll have to control it in order to avoid hurting someone you care or love. Once you hurt someone, it’s hard to cure it. There’s a saying that once you’ve hammer a nail into the wall, even if you’ve removed the nail, the hole will be there forever. Time will never go back.