Alright, let’s see… It’s been 3 months already since you stepped out of my life. Time sure flies doesn’t it. Gotta say that I was pretty devastated that day when I was woke up by mom and told that you were not in your cage. My mind went blank for a few seconds back then. When I came back to my senses, I immediately rushed downstairs to make sure if my mom was telling the truth. Unfortunately, she was indeed right, your cage was empty. Immediately, tears began to pour down my face, I’ve never cried so hard in my entire life nor have I ever felt so depressed in my entire life. It took me quite a long time before I could stood back up.

3 months have past, you stepped out of my life, but life still goes on. I’ve slowly gotten used to the fact that you are no longer with me now. Have I moved on? No, I don’t think so, how can I move on when I’m still missing you. You were like a son to me, you’ve always provided me company whenever I’m feeling lonely and down. You’ve brought so much fun and happy moments into my life. You have even helped me made a couple of good friends, most of all, you helped me found my true love, Poh Yee, and I’m really grateful for that. And probably it’s because of that, that I can’t move on. Everytime I look at Poh Yee, I can’t help but think that it was you who made this relationship possible.

Now that you’ve left me, how am I suppose to repay you. You have given me so much, yet I’ve given you only so little. Till today, I still shed tears everytime I browse through your photo album. I really want to feel your soft fur run through my hands once more. I really want to lie down beside you on the floor and take afternoon naps like we used to. I really really want to hug you tightly, even if its just for a moment. I miss that silly face of yours whenever I pat your head. Even more, I miss you… I really do.

I always believed that everything happens for a reason. You coming into my life and even stepping out. The reason that you came into my life, was to provide me with endless joy and happiness. Although I have yet to find the reason for you leaving me, but I’m sure its for the best. I can only wish that where ever you may be now, you are doing way much better than you usually do when you were with me. If fate allows it, I really hope that you will return to me someday. Know that you will always be my dearest and beloved son. No one can ever replace you in my heart, my dear boy, Axel.

This is one of the few songs that managed to move me and one of the few songs that I won’t get tired listening to no matter how many times I’ve heard it before. The 1st time I listened to it, I wasn’t paying attention to the lyrics of the song. After a while, I started paying attention to the lyrics and was deeply moved by it. tThis song is so good, yet so sad at the same time.

The song is literally about this guy not wanting to move on, still hoping that the one girl that he love will come back, still remaining where he was in life in case she comes back. The lyrics to this song is so simple and at the same time so wonderful.

So always appreciate the one that you have now. Emotions are something that sometimes people cannot control. But you’ll have to control it in order to avoid hurting someone you care or love. Once you hurt someone, it’s hard to cure it. There’s a saying that once you’ve hammer a nail into the wall, even if you’ve removed the nail, the hole will be there forever. Time will never go back.

最近不知为什么突然迷上了五月天，觉得他们的歌不但好听还很有意思，就像这首歌”生命是有一种绝对”.

如果生命有一种绝对,
那绝对是对生命的堅持.

如果生命有一种绝对,
那绝对是对生命的感动.

如果生命有一种绝对,
那绝对是对生命的付出.

如果生命有一种绝对,
那绝对是对生命的一种尊敬.

每個人生下來都有每個人的使命，就像阿信唱的~黑暗中期待光線，生命有一种绝对.. 如果还有时间体力..请继续完成你的梦想，就算失敗一百次一千次也不重要…重要的是仍然相信…要加油好好努力的活下去!!

只因为我爱你，
我会时不时想起你的好，
想起你对我说过的话，
想起你与我的点点滴滴，
而那些不好的，
也被我锁在了心灵的深处，
不让它破坏你在我心中的完美形象…

只因为我爱你，
我会时时刻刻地注意着你，
却又怕被你发现，
所以我都默默地躲在你的背后，
支持着你…

只因为我爱你，
我可以半夜不睡觉，
等着你的一封温馨的信息，
只希望知道你是安好的，
我也就放心了…

只因为我爱你，
我可以不顾别人的看法，
一心只要对你好，
无论别人怎么批评，
我依然相信，
我的选择是对的..

只因为我爱你，
我放弃了我的骄傲，
我放弃了我的任性，
愿意低下头来，
换取好好和你相处的机会…

只因为我爱你，
一切的一切都不再重要了，
打从我爱你的那一刻起，
我已经不再是我了，
因为我的生命中，
只剩下你了…

或许你会觉得我真的很傻，
但我傻的甘愿，傻得很幸福，
只因为我爱你~

我只想静静地守侯在你的身边，
就算结局不完美，
我也无怨无悔…

你可以不爱我，
但不能阻止我爱你…

因为爱，所以傻，

我只想对你好…

So much has happened since last month. Some I would rather not share but there is one that I would like to share, and that is my dog, Axel, was stolen from my home. It’s been already a month since that tragic day, it still stings my heart whenever I think of him. But I have not given up hope yet, I believe that someday we will be reunited again.

Enough about that, I’m writing this to announce that Axel has a new website. Yay. This project 1st started around February, and I got abit lazy back then and kept delaying the project. But now it’s finally up and running, although the gallery part is still under construction. But I promise you that I’ll finish taht up as soon as possible. ^^

You can visit Axel’s new site by following this link http://axel.kiravh.com

Cheers and have a good day.